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Please give on the soonish side
Please don't give at this time
Received!

Borrowing a note from Lelouch's book here to say: Please don't use all up all of my positives too quickly, they are in short supply. At the moment, I have requested stuff, so the above is kind of moot, but he will soon reach a point of no more requests.

Memories - 25/72



Significant Positive - 2/4
Meeting Galen at age fourteen: a purpose! (OS, MD 345) [memory #9]
Killing Baron Ryoval (MD 679) * the Killer persona [memory #24, no writeup yet]
Calling Miles and making the Deal with Fell (M, MD 700)
Meeting with the Koudelkas, with Cordelia as mediator, and Kareen taking out an option on him (K, CC 688)

Significant Neutral - 6/8
First conversation with Miles: getting named (M, BiA 202) [memory #16, no writeup yet]
Meeting Miles for the exchange and killing Galen (M, BiA 264) [memory #19, no writeup yet]
First meeting with Aral and Cordelia in Vorkosigan House (MD 466)
Overhearing Aral and Cordelia conversing in the library (MD 500) [memory #15, no writeup yet]
Finally tracking down Miles, to find him alive...and amnesiac...and then there's a raid (M, MD 637)
Sessions of force-feeding (MD 664, 678) * the Gorge persona [memory #22, no writeup yet]
Sessions of rape under aphrodisiac (MD 664, 680) * the Grunt persona [memory #23, no writeup yet]
Sessions of physical torture (MD 664, 680) * the Howl persona [memory #21, no writeup yet]

Significant Negative - 5/7
Shock-stick rape (OS, MD 452) * panic attacks in sexual situations [memory #18, no writeup yet]
Miles takes a needle grenade to the heart (M, MD 398) [memory #10]
Molesting Maree, having a panic attack, and being discovered (MD 448) [memory #8]
Black depression in solitary confinement (MD 455) * overeating as stress response [memory #14]
Aral's heart attack (MD 517)
The first day of torture, before he dissociates (MD 653) [memory #20, no writeup yet]
The dinner party of doom (M, CC 517, 544)

Notable Positive - 2/11
Isolating and replacing Miles with his own cunning plan (M, BiA 169)
Miles letting him disappear with a credit chit and a dream (M, BiA 301)
The Emperor's Birthday: meeting Kareen and other adventures (MD 539) [memory #5]
Exploring Miles' room, getting a flash of determination, and convincing Illyan to let him in on the search (MD 552)
Elena apologizing to him (MD 571) [memory #11]
Cordelia buying him a ship and talking Illyan into it, and swearing Elena in as his Armsman (MD 575, 592)
Visits with Aral and Kareen before he leaves (MD 596)
Becoming Mark again, having his escape, and finding his way to the Duronas (MD 685)
Winterfair, Kareen, and general happiness (M, MD 728, 735)
General Beta Colony montage: business school, Kareen, and therapy (refs. needed)
Gregor and Laisa's wedding, with maple ambrosia and general joy (CC 781)

Notable Neutral - 1/11
Growing up montage: clone culture, vid tutorials, surgeries (OS, MD 345, 348, 596) [memory #7]
Life with Galen montage: general training and indoctrination (OS, MD 345, 348)
Second conversation with Miles: this is all for you (M, BiA 287)
Missing years montage: researching the possibility of freeing Jacksonian clones, going underground every time Miles contacted him, and running out of money (ref. needed)
Calling up the Dendarii as Admiral Naismith and meeting with Thorne (MD 311)
Miles put in a cryo-chamber and a very disorderly retreat (MD 400)
Ivan taking him to meet with Gregor (MD 483)
Eventually visiting Vorkosigan Surleau, Elena's death offering for her father, and talking with Aral (MD 508)
The Emperor's Birthday: talking with Cordelia beforehand, and performing the presentation to Gregor (MD 525)
Working at ImpSec and having some, ah, interesting conversations with Illyan (MD 559)
Denouement conversations with Elena and Miles (MD 718)
Kareen weathering the dark times and helping him wrangle the Black Gang (ref. needed)

Notable Negative - 3/7
Running into his fellow clone after the brain transplant (OS, BiA 209) [memory #0]
Forced exercise to maintain Miles' weight (ref. needed) [memory #12]
The failed raid on Bharaputra's clone-creche (MD 367)
Handing Luigi to Fell, along with the Durona clone, and leaving Miles behind (MD 442)
Meeting Simon Illyan to be brought back to Barrayar (MD 457)
Getting jumped by thugs in the caravanserai and nearly killing a guy (MD 493) [memory #3]
Letting Gorge and Howl deal with the aftermath of the dinner party (OS, CC 544)

Trivial Positive - 1/4
Meeting up with Kareen and getting her in on the butter bug project (CC 419)
Feeding Ekaterin bug butter, and discussing product development with Ma Kosti (K, CC 449)
Amidst bug business, Cordelia offers to help set things straight with the Koudelkas (CC 640) [memory #1]
Coming home from business to discover the Escobarran officers trying to arrest Enrique, and Miles cockblocking them (CC 768)

Trivial Neutral - 3/12
First day living as Miles (OS, BiA 188) [memory #6]
Fleeing with Galen, kidnapping Ivan, and arranging the exchange (ref. needed, OS MD 482)
Playing tag with Miles and three different groups of soldiers afterwards (M, BiA 273) [memory #13]
Visiting the clones, negotiation with Fell, doing some research (MD 431)
Getting the lead on the Duronas, and meeting with the Dendarii again (MD 603)
Visiting the Duronas on Escobar for weight-loss drugs, bailing out Enrique, and rescuing the butter bugs (OS, CC 370, 406)
Arriving at Vorkosigan House and pitching the butter bugs to Miles (CC 403) [memory #17, no writeup yet]
Meeting Ekaterin, conversations with her and Miles, finding out about Miles' seizures and courtship plans (E, CC 429)
Exploring Vorkosigan District, relationship woes with Kareen (CC 469)
Talking with Cordelia the next morning, and discovering that the Koudelkas blocked his calls (CC 543)
Visiting Ekaterin and Kareen to discuss bug business, and talking with Miles afterwards (CC 588)
Realizing that he and Kareen can't make it to Miles' wedding, and picking out a present to send them (OS, WG 848)

Trivial Negative - 2/8
Discovering Admiral Naismith's existence, and the first replacement plan failing (OS, BiA 174)
Getting subpoenaed by the local law before he was able to ship to Barrayar (OS, BiA 223)
First chance with a girl stopped short by a panic attack (ref. needed)
Meeting Taura: that had been a kiss (MD 325) [memory #2]
After three days in hiding, further mission briefings with Thorne (MD 343)
Miles coming to bail him out with backup (M, MD 394) [memory #4]
Debriefing and negotiation with Vasa Luigi (MD 414)
Being brought to Baron Ryoval (MD 648)



Skills - 5/7



Mundane - 5/7
General assassin knowledge [skill #1]
Hand to hand combat (efficient and brutal) [skill #4, no writeup yet]
Being Miles Vorkosigan (but not Admiral Naismith, FML)
High pain tolerance (what it says on the tin)
Intelligence analysis [skill #2]
Business school (leet economic knowledge) [skill #5, no writeup yet]
Really good neckrubs [skill #3, no writeup yet]

Magical/Other
N/A

Notes



Codes:
OS: Indicates an offscreen memory. Flashback, telling somebody a story, summary of events taking place elsewhere, something of that sort.
M: Indicates that the memory is from Miles' POV, not Mark's.
E: Or Ekaterin's.
K: Or Kareen's.
BiA: Brothers in Arms.
MD: Mirror Dance.
CC: A Civil Campaign.
WG: "Winterfair Gifts."

There will probably be a few things from other books that I haven't fished out yet. I haven't read beyond "Winterfair Gifts," and I know there's an offscreen entry from Memory. But this is certainly more than enough to start a registry. :D

I have the omnibus editions, which is what I'm using for my page numbers. That would be why some of those numbers are ridiculously high. I'm just noting where the memory starts, though most are multi-page, because I'm already putting enough neurotic work into this registry.

Memories with an asterisk after them come with major psychological elements, as noted.

Memories tagged with "ref. needed" are bits of canon that I remember were in the books somewhere, but forgot to flag on re-read. There are no purely headcanon memories on this registry; there don't need to be, though there might be a few cases where I have to headcanon to fill in the outline of an offscreen event. Bujold is thorough.

I'm doing a fair bit of lumping together of trivial stuff in this registry, as I did with Ven's, because otherwise there would be entry after entry of "another meeting with one of the Dendarii" or "more offscreen butter bug business" or whatever. Mirror Dance especially has a lot of stuff in it, and I want him to have a chance of getting to important stuff soonish.

The locks in this registry are basically built around giving Mark his issues and then his coping mechanisms for them, because the reverse is less interesting. I'm also starting with locks on post-Ryoval memories that deal with the Black Gang in depth, though when I unlock those will instead depend upon when and how I feel like giving him the realization that he's pseudo-DID.

And yeah, this is a big enough registry that I wanted to use the three-fold division of importance, especially given that most of his memories are important to one degree or another. Memories of middling degrees of impact will be listed as "notable," to minimize confusion with "neutral."

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